Friday, June 30, 2006

Love is the Triumph of Imagination over Intelligence

Jangan pernah berpura-pura mencintai apabila benar-benar tidak merasakannya, cinta bukan sesuatu hal yang mutlak untuk dirasakan dan dimiliki.

Benarkah aku mencintainya?
Benar, aku mencintainya!
Sunggukah aku menginkannya?
Sungguh, aku menginkannya!

Tapi kenapa ada kebimbangan?
Muncul karena rasa ragu
Tapi kenapa ada keraguan?
Muncul karena rasa bimbang

Bimbang dalam menentukan
Bahwa dialah pilihan
Ragu dalam memutuskan
Bahwa dialah terpilih

Dia bukan pilihan, tidak menggoyahkan
Menggoyahkan beberapa pilihan yang ada
Dia bukan terpilih, tidak menggetarkan
Menggetarkan hati yang mencari pilihan

Hmm... Bukan terpuruk dalam masalah cinta. Tidak juga penuh dengan pertimbangan. Terpuruk dalam pertimbangan bukanlah hal yang buruk, itu adalah sebuah proses dalam pencarian. Proses memutuskan tanpa pertimbangan sesuatu hal yang putus asa. Aku benar-benar mencintai seseorang, sesorang yang has something in common dengan aku. Tapi selain itu, ada sesuatu yang dia tidak miliki yang aku inginkan. Perasaan yang aku rasakan mungkin seperti lyric lagu Queen.

I want to break free
I want to break free from your lies
You're so self satisfied I don't need you
I've got to break free
God knows, God knows I want to break free

I've fallen in love
I've fallen in love for the first time
And this time I know it's for real
I've fallen in love
God knows, God knows I've fallen in love

It's strange but it's true
I can't get over the way you love me like you do
But I have to be sure
When I walk out that door
Oh, how I want to be free, baby
Oh, how I want to break free

But life still goes on
I can't get used to living without you by my side
I don't want to live alone
God knows, got to make it on my own
So, baby can't you see
I've got to break free
I want to break free

Situasi yang aku alami ini mungkin seperti;
Apa yang telah aku dapat, belum tentu yang aku inginkan. Apa yang aku inginkan, belum tentu yang aku dapatkan. Aku menginkan yang terbaik, tapi yang terbaik belum tentu baik buat aku.

I desire someone doesn't exist
I got someone does exist
I have a passion for someone doesn't exist
Someone does exist is getting close

Someone does exist stands in front of me
I just don't even want to realize it
Someone does exist tries to reach my heart
I just don't even know if I have one

Someone doesn't exist dances in my eyes
I just don't even know how follow it
Someone doesn't exist wants me so much
I just don't even know how repay it

I deserve my punishment
For deny someone does exist
Shame on me
For waiting someone doesn't exist

To love and be loved
Has to feel from both sides
Being in love shows who I should be
There is no remedy for love but to love more

So, I don't care if I will die old and single, but, I do if I die alone. It's not a matter of life or death somehow. I'm just confused on what I really want. All that I want is the something something. The something that rocks my world and blows my mind until I couldn't recognize anyone else and realize that life is still going on no more. Love is not enough, it must be the foundation, the cornerstone, but, not the complete structure. There's always some madness in love, but, there is also always some reason in madness. I can't love anyone until I understand that I can't love everyone.


At 1:26 AM, Blogger rip3b3rry said...

Deep,confused and unsatisfied.

In your definition of love, it's the image of forbidden love that I got. You know when you love someone that you cannot have until it hurts just to think about it. So, I think you should have an affair, a very black affair, and then you can settle with someone that exist. See, coz perhaps you never had a blazing love 9mee too), a mixture between passion, care, lust and possession. Until then you will never satisfied with just someone exist (at least I felt that way).

At 5:14 AM, Anonymous Jim said...

U seem like U are in denial of love and don't want to admit that someone special is in front of you right now.

Just open Ur eyes and take it.

At 7:10 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

love is blind


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